[	Current Location	|	my bedddd	]
[	mood	|	nostalgic	]
[	music	|	my playlist on myspace	]

My computers actually having alot of problems right now, but I'm feeling really nostalgic, so I'm going to update anway.  So I like purple.  I should be at school right now actually, but I'm not cause my eyes were like crazy swollen. I also went to sleep right after my volleyball game yesterday and did no homework. I went to sleep immediately because my eyes were swollen. I kindof just need a break. I will actually be missing a game today (against mount vernon) but Im sure we'll win so it doesnt matter much. Its actually nice not to have to see coach k today. God that man's an asshole.  Let's see where to start talking about things...

Well I kindof miss livejournal when I remember about it, because all my friends from it I don't realy talk to too much anymore. It's more like I dont really do non school related things anymore in general. I feel sad that I don't know about peoples livese anymore, but I guess thats the whole growing apart thing. Yea so right now my days are filled with New Rochelle volleyball drama. We've had like 5 or 6 people leave the team and half of them come back which is soo ridiculous. and our record is like 1 and 9 which is the WORST its ever been. Ireally just want it to be over now. 0ctober 20 couldn't come soon enough.

Something that's changed since my last journal entry like over a year ago, is that i think I'm less insecure.  I think Ive stopped caring about pople judging me and it's really nice. I think it's mostly due to my hair actually, because it's kindof forced me to deal with people's constant opinions on it. Most of the time I get how do you do it and wow thats pretty but i also get is that yours?? and What the Fuck? And there are my few friends CHRIS who liked it better the old way. But oh well. You can't please evIeryboy all the time.  And then of course it's really nice to know no matter how much things change and people like or dislike you theres one person you can count on to always be there for you and thats really nice. I know that last sentence would absolutely make Mrs. Wallace shudder. Sorry guys.

fkl lj was refusing to give me bold purple, sorry had to test it out. Anyhow yea I won't bore you guys, if there is any of you reading this, abot my romantical life, but my one year anniversairy is coming up in a month from tomorrow. so yay=) So that makes me happy because as of rignt now that's probably the only person I can count on. My family is still my family and absolutely dysfunctional in every way possible. And i can't even begin to talk about the craziness there because i'm somewhat ashamed of how ridiculous it has become. We're supposedly going to counseling  but I really can't think to much about that because college applications are looming and I need to go back to being a scholarship searching fiend.  My father is being his usual undependable self, promising to send money and then making me wait for it and making up all these bs excsues like i put the wrong address. HOW many times can you put the wrong adress? when it comes to the truth I honestly can't trust either of my parents, which is a shame.  This is basically why i MUST GO AWAY for college.  How many days till graduation? like 160? ughh.  which reminds me that i should probably start thinking up that quote.

Is  there a limit to how much i can type? i've definitively been going on for like forever now. i reallyhope mr.morrison isn't calling my house as i type. ughh.  but that's it for now.  I forgot how much I like just randomly writing. I guess it's just because I stopped having time to do things i like, like randomly writing and reading. ah well...till my next update, probably a year from now. 

my moods a purple star! how cute. i thought they were smileys. that made me happy. i love when things match.

on some other random notes to update you on my life: i stopped having a myspace because i forgot the password. so my myspace is still there just kind of floating in hyperspace.  my cat is blind which is sad. my siser lives wth me and my father liikess to be in my life onoccassion. and i refurse to change my email to make colleges happy. will starryeyes328 really offendthem that much? so i've got starred eyes, isnt that a good thing? however once i do get into the business world i may get something more conventional like nedwards but not now.  oh and um i'm in a miss new york pageant...just to be even more random basically. lol
 

i really wanted to write an about me on myspace, when i realized i coudnt, because i HATE abt me's. Not because they're corny or whatever, but because i feel like the reader is judging me (duh) differently than they would if they just talked to me. I guess I'm much more likeable in action/ in conversation than on paper. idk. i know i think too much. why do i think this much? because im putting off doing anything of real necessity. like summer work, or figuring out my event for the naacp. i guess im thinking if i was to write an honest abt me, ppl would b like wow you're really like unstable.  I mean honestly i think, im generally a really nice person, except when you annoy me. or idk you, cuz if idk  u, I'll probably come off blunt cuz im blunt with people i dont care about. well rly blunt, when i first meet them. And i like to entertain ppl so then i act different. like i probably wouldnt bitch as much as i do (which i dont think is tht much) if i ddnt think it  would entertained ppl. idk i guess i was just cringing at the reactions ppl might have of knowing all the sides of norrell. idk y i wrote this...ughhhhhh

im in a weird mood....mayb it would be more normal if i told the entertaining story of me having a conversation with a mute man at the hair salon...nah i dont feel like it

[	mood	|	blank	]
[	music	|	pistolera- i want there cd	]

i've decided list making is fun

loves:
food
makeup
talking on the fone late at nite with eyes closed ( u shud try it, its amazing, preferably laying down lol)
long good fone conversations
aim
myspace
memorbilia like postcards, letters ecetera
flowers
people

fantasy like books, movies, cartoons                                                                                                                                                                                                
inside jokes       
clothes (fashionable ones or atleast ones tht make the wearer of them look go0d=)                      
Bboys                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                volleyball  
fwends nd famillia                         
that feeling of accomplishment
music
spontinuity(sometimes)
jewelry(earrings)..mayb i shud make tht accessories
70degree sunny days
camp
having morals
falling asleep to music


hates:
cocky people
boyss
horrible sayings like " i was born with glitter in my veins."<------------ew
whores, they make girls look badd
SCALES
feeling depressed, failure, out of control of things
cauliflower
school
emotional breakdowns
fearssss
being hit on..cuz i cnt say fuck u, thts how girls get killed
jealoussy
camp
being incompetent at thingss
having morals
body image

okkay i shud stop this cud go on foreverrr

there are soooooooo mny other things i shud b doing rite now. like reading the new sisterhood of the traveling pants book i got, or studying for the physics midterm, or studying for the global test, or writing those 250wrds for photography. i told myself i wud get to all of tht eventually tonite. sooo i went to see the children of men with julia nd it was prettyy good, i kinda wnt to read the book but not actually. who has time to read? is anyone doing ap writing? i dont wnt to. honestly i like reading in english for the most part nd can u imagine the hw for tht class? huge complicated writing assignments every nite? nooo thank u. we're eventually going to read a tale of two cities, that makes me sad. i read it 4years ago nd completely dont remember what happened. i onli remember it taking me months to read and being very bored.
what do i hav to tlk abt? im having biscotti nd hot chocolate...its rly rly good. especially since its chocolate covered with toffeee. hmm. my downstate tryouts keep getting pushed back...who knows why. my sweet 16, who knows what will happen with tht either.  ii tried to tlk to hannah abt fashion...it ddnt rly wrk out all tht well. tho it seems she thnks jeans never get warm (wtf of course they do, if they ddnt then half the wrld wudnt be wearing them). i thnk she thinks its just me tht thinks she dresses strangely. tho its rly pretty much anyone whose ever seen her. nd everyone in our grade from alms.  and she was telling me how ppl shud accept other ppls fashion choices nd i cud do tht if HER FASHION CHOICES MADE HER LOOK GOOD> how r u comfortable in something tht makes u look horrible? howww.  hoowww? u kno what my blanket is pretty damn comfortable, y dont i sew tht into a tarp dress nd where it to school. u kno y she's comfortable? because she's in denial. nd i probably wudnt hav such a ridiculous issue abt this if i ddnt see her ALL THE TIME> like if it was last year it wud jus be like hannah ford has no fashion sense, whatever but now its i hav to see hannah every day nd be tolerant of her. like she just irks me nd i kno she duznt try to be annoying to everyone or alot of ppl but she is. BUT i kindof give off a hannah i dont like u, please leave me alone so i wont hav to be xtrememly mean to u vibe but she ignores it. nd  yet she still JUMPS into my conversations with ppl nd talks to me extremely unnecessarily anyway....i kno this sounds rly mean. do ppl ever piss u off so much tht u just yell at them uncontrollably? i kno robin duz this to isaac alot and melissa sometimes too. i feel like if i did this to hannah ppl wud be all like ooohhh ur being SO mean come on now norrell.  ii thinkk i dont usually yell at ppl alot atleast not like completely except for maybe isaac because loves arguing with me something fierce, but yeah. hannah will make me yell at her before this school year is over.  oh nd cud she please stop flirting with brian? it makes me stomache churn in a non fun way.
ohh and i hate lunch 1. alot. alot alot alot. i feel like there's no one to tlk to kindof. sometimes i actually cnt wait for lunch to be over due to extreme boredom.  im growing out my perm. it'll take a while nd im not a patient person. ughhh lifes depressing. nd not exciting.  ii definately dont take enuff chances. home life is also blah... apparently cornelius has proposed to my grandpa at the senior citizen center. who knows if its true. my grandma cnt recall nd the nurses, well they cud be egging us on. one day i shud hide behind a potted plant and see.  ok well thts enuff of this. bye for now.

s0o im not rly sure why, but my grandmother is convinced I weigh 100lbs. actuallly less. which rly isnt possible for my height nd body shape. is she asked me last week if i was 110, then today i come in her room.. and she says hey u lose weight.  you weigh less than a hundred right. me: no nana not all. tht wudnt be possible. so then she says oh. you weight 98 then, then i jus left. .....this comming from a woman who use to wrk in a hospital...i love the old tho. and i love how we hav cinnamon raison mini bagels. yayness. im tempted to do club volleyball, but im slightly afraid it will effect my life to much. I'll have to think about it. alot.  and thats more or less it.  see u guys monday?

okkay im only posting cause dan told me too, soo i wasnt planning on bitching on this level...so jus shutup and lissten

i officially believe in friday the 13th and days surrounding it

could there BE a worst time to get sick with a like 101 fever when u hav like rly important tests and volleyballs games?
ok so thursday after practice i had a fever. my mom gave aloe vera. yes tht is the stuff they put in lotion. and it did taste like water tainted with shampoo no matter how much my mom claims its exactly like water. so then my fever when down to like 99.

okay so after that i was studying for physics.....i hate proectile motion 2d...i went to bed at like 2ish
and it probably DDNT help tht my mom was watchin pizza acrobatics and the worlds strongest boy(at the age of 6 he cud kill us all!! google little hercules, pics and the first pic is him)

so friday im like 99ish i guess temperature wise
i make it thru school
math test is easy thank god for slow math classes....it makes me feel  rly smart

physics test....tht makes me feel like a retard. im pretty sure after question 6, nothing is definite....

ok so volleyball game. im rly tired and rly cold

we play white plains and lose. very unlucky. i went to chicken joes and they ddnt give me my pizza bagel. sigh also unlucky=(

but atleast at the game my serves were good

my mom brings leanna and simone to the games, u kno those lil kids i babysit who i never actually get paid for babysitting. yea. i was like WHY DID  U BRING THEM.

but now they wanna play volleyball which is rly cute

ok so after game. rush rush rush home. shower look for stalkings. get rdy to go to gabbys sweet sixteen. im sickish...but stupid so i still go. and im late.

ok we go to the supermarket to get her a card but my mom forgot her wallet so we hav to go back home

theeennnnn we go back to supermarche and get card.  we're on our way to party which is in bronxe. me madre gets lost. we hav to like go back over whitestone bridge. by this point my eyes are red for no real reason and watering. i finally make it to party hour and half late. i stay till 12:10. I would have left at like say 11ish, but mom got lost on way to picking me up sooo. but the party was fun.

I go home and sleep. I LOVE SLEEP. i actually ddnt feel tht bad this morning. but i think i still had a temperature. but of couse i ddnt tell my mom tht. went to volleyball tournament bought tea to bring with me.....and yea. tournament was fun. WE GOT SECOND PLACE!!! YEA US AND A TROPHY!!! where are all the paintball and tennis trophies aYe? u guys get any yet?!?!
and at the tournament i injure my thum and now its swollen and hurts to be moved. kinda. and thts pretty much it. went home and slept for three hours.
if im sick monday....fuck it. im jus not comin to school. french test definately not as imporant

and theres my story. pity me. lol.

oh and as soon as i got home melissa called to kno if i wanted to go to the haunted house tonite. i was like hahahaaha. definately not. and then i told her my epic tale.

the end
le finis

my new laptop finally came. i mite get it set up this weekend. idontkno. lots of homework. im tired. the end. sigh.